Last Saturday my partner and I had a wonderful time with the canoe. We arrived home very tired but satisfied. We both plopped down on the couch and immediately fell asleep.
After my afternoon nap on Sunday afternoon, because we were still quite tired from the previous day, I got out of bed with a very unpleasant feeling. I already noticed that I reacted irritably to certain things and somewhere I knew something was wrong. This was clearly an energetic blockage, a piece of rejection.
Towards the evening it got worse and even with my breathing I couldn’t get rid of the sick feeling in my stomach. I also started having intense cramps in my stomach.
My partner was watching a movie and we turned off the TV to keep the house quiet. This only lasted a short while and I left my partner to watch the film and retreated to my music. I put my music on my ears and let myself be carried away by the melody (the best music that works for me is classical/film orchestral music)
The order in which the music played, on shuffle, was perfect for what was to come. (I’m going to listen to the songs again and make a short list for myself so that I can use the order again for a next ‘meditation’)
The first song put me in a state of peace, a safe warm white light with angels and white doves surrounded me. I was able to relax, I started breathing calmly and then I surrendered.
During the next song that matched it perfectly, I saw an Indian with a bird of prey, an eagle, on his arm. I became curious and walked over. When I arrived he released the eagle. This image overwhelmed me because I felt a heavy load of ‘letting go’. It touched me so deeply that tears started to roll down my cheeks. Sobbing with tears, I felt the love the Indian had for his bird, this was great. He could not allow himself to hold the animal. It was allowed to spread its wings and make its own journey. And yet it felt that one day the eagle will return again, but braver and wiser than ever before.
This was so clearly my part that I had to go through…
With the third piece of music I was shown the strings of a guitar. And there was another AHA moment…The String of Life… I interpreted the strings of a guitar as your journey to union, your authentic self! The balance in the two energies you possess.
For me, the thin strings, the high tones, represented the masculine part (the mental part). For me, the thick strings and the low tones represented the feminine piece (the emotional piece) and the strings in the middle were the fusion of both pieces (union, balance between the ego and the emotions)
A lot of us want to stay grounded, go with the flow energy. However, this extreme is also not in balance because you probably want to obscure your mental part a bit with this. It is important to go through those emotions to become more balanced in order to also be able to manifest the earthly. And for the ego it is important to try to become more aware of the feeling, to live from your feeling/heart. So it is important to work on yourself, keep moving forward, keep growing.
Then I take the two energies. We all possess the Masculine and Feminine energy. These are both injured at the moment. The masculine energy is disempowered and confused and the feminine energy has been deeply wounded by oppression and is now fighting for its self-worth. It is important that these two energies work together to achieve that Union, the inner child may grow into an adult soul in balance.
We no longer have to literally die to reincarnate to finish the work here on earth. You may now ascend into the body you now have. Change is only possible if the entire collective is willing to work hard for it. There are still too few of us to bring total change.
I hope it is still clear and you understand what I am trying to explain.
All in all, in less than 15 minutes, a lot was felt, seen, released and nothing was lacking in insights.
The last part of my surrender was a cheerful part and a smile came to my face again, I felt relieved and free and the tension was gone.
I thanked the Universe for this fantastic synchronized journey, because there is no such thing as coincidence. Everything back to how it was meant to be for me, trusting what the Universe asked me to do, trusting my intuition and doing what felt right for me.